Its got my name on it, and its waiting there for me - James Morrison

Journal
This is a journal I've been keeping over the past few days to vent my  frustration. Its not particularly art related but its very much what I'm going through and so I decided to share. I'll spoil it for you. Alls well that ends well. VERY WELL :D

April 21st 

Finally the University of Toronto has my application "under review". (Previously it had it as incomplete) I was a bit tardy with my transcripts and supplemental information (Hey I've lived in 3 different countries and attended 4 different schools). I've been told that the University of the West Indies answers superlate (which hasn't helped my suffering nailbeds) and the post has lost my transcript for York University. I'm understandbly on edge!

April 26th :

Patiently awaiting my university applications while pondering whether or not I want to enter in the field of medicine. I've been playing with the idea of journalism or creating an art collective a la Friends With You. But I've wanted to be a doctor for as long as I can remember. I wanted to join the UN or Doctors Wihout Borders or another non-profit. Lately though I've felt uneasy especially with this long wait for acceptance, my declining gades, a seven year detterent and my eminent reintroduction to canada. However I'm told this is just a phase. God, I hope so.

April 28th :

A special thanks to all the social networks out there who continue to update me on everybody else who has been accepted into universities already. If my previous statement seems tinged with jealousy and sarcasm, thats because it is! Sigh, impatiently waiting.

May 9th :

Cambridge has officially started. I did the first of my four math papers today and for once I feel pretty confident. No acceptance letters yet but I haven't got any rejection letters either. Glass half full right? 

May 13th

Still no response. I have wonderful world by James Morrison on repeat. (8) I know that it's a wonderful world, but I can't feel it right now, I thought I was doing well I just wanna cry now......Who am I to dream, dreams are for foools, they let you down (8) *sigh. When I have evanescence on replay, I'll start to worry. Anyway back to the books, cambridge isn't gonna write itself. 

May 17th

Officially under review for York University!!!! Still worried about it being mid May and still no response but still optimistic. I have no other choice but to be. Silver Lining Ashani, silver linings.

May 19th

So FUCKING FRUSTRATTTTEEEDDDDD. I just recieved an email from u of t that says my transcripts are showing two sets of grades for the same set of years from different schools . NOW i do not know how that fucking happened. Schools dont show u the transcripts they send off. I don't even know how to go about clarifying that. And It is now too late to call any body and I have to address that tomorow. I am crying on my keyboard currently. Last letters of acceptance go out second week of june. It is now may 19th. May fucking 19th. I have no optimism left

May 24th

So finally i have found out the issue with my trancripts. I am now trying to rectify it. Really at this point i'm just going through the motions bcuz I relli believe its too late.

May 30th

I am in correspondence with the admissions officer in chrge of my case. And things seem to be going smoothly. He seems interested in my case so I can be either mopey/depressed or try and be strong and hopeful. I'm going with the hopeful route ( it seems more pleasant)

JUNE 1ST

 I GOT ACCEPTED TO THE UNIVERSITY OF TORONTO !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! BEYOND EXCITED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!  PEEING MY PANTS EXCITED/ CANT STOP DANCING EXCITED/ WANT TO CALL EVERY LIVING RELATIVE EXCITEDDDDDDDD.... this is the official end of my journey to uni journal.  The stress was necessary to make me truly and uterrly appreciate and live in this moment!!!!!! God i am excited to the core! U of T my lovelies! XD

future school

future husband in right hand corner :p

Disgustingly happy face!!

I love you!